Pat (PVT): When I was little, my parents planted a tree in the corner of our front yard. They must've had some landscaping bee in their bonnet at the time because aside from pulling weeds and mowing the lawn, we're not big on knowing what to do in a garden. In fact, when the tree was planted, I remember thinking, "Hmmm. Why?"
My own interaction with plants is a chronicle of fruitlessness. If I said, "I am a total disaster at it" I would be understating the situation. The only success I've had with a plant was the one Traci Kallberg gave me for my birthday, I must have been 16. I don't even know what kind of plant it was. It lasted through high school but my freshman year of college dealt it a fatal blow. It's no surprise. I was a wreck and was in survival mode for most of that year, so if something needed me it was its severe misfortune. A cute little shovel ornament came with the plant and I kept it for a long time post mortem....why? I don't really know. Was I trying to honor its memory or was I trying to assuage my guilt? The shovel did little else but remind me of my failure to keep a living thing alive!
More insight about my botanical roots: years ago, I was in the yard, talking to a neighbor, an avid gardener, and I showed him a pair of rose pruners that I bought (why was I having this conversation anyway? I think I was trying to be interesting. As if prattling on and on about a subject of which I know nothing could be interesting for anybody!). Anyway, Scot (my neighbor) very astutely and without a hint of sarcasm made an observation, "Why do you need those? Your mom has been using her machete to do that for years. She's gotten pretty good at it!"
By the time I was in junior high, that tree in the front yard had begun to grow into the wires over our street. My mom was distressed. At first, all she did was to cut a few of the stray branches back. However, every spring the tree would not only grow back, it came back taller and fuller. My mom is a pretty serious woman. So, she'd be back out there with her machete. She's got skills and the tree bears the scars of her proficiency. I truly wish I had video footage of my mom trying to snuf this tree out. There were years when the whole front yard was covered with the flowers, the limbs and pieces of the trunk of this tree and I would think, "It's dead now. Gotta be dead." Clearly, though, this tree has made a friend with Time.
It's still with us, the tree I mean. My mom seems to have accepted its presence and they co exist rather well. I sort of honor it with every spring's first bloom. I'm kind of amazed at its will. I'm really amazed at its beauty. It's beautiful in a beautiful, flowery way and it's beautiful in an alive, surviving way. I hope someday that that can be said about me.
11 comments:
ff: oh a.p., you are beautiful...and i would say beyond a poetic way.
Keilah(KF): A Peezy!!! You are so funny!!! Now growing up for me around Grandma's house has included some very key landmarks in on your property. Those include: the logs at the top of your driveway, the compost pile in the back yard, the cement slab by the garage, the "ladders" on the back porch, the rockery(many "pretend adventures" took place on those rockes by the way), and that tree.
That tree to me has loomed in my life for as long as I can remember, back in the day when your tv used to sit in front of the window in the living room, I often found myself looking past the tv, and to the tree outside, whether it was in bloom or not. Something about that tree has always captured me. I didn't even know Grandma and Grandpa planted it!!! I just thought it was there.
I think I have come to appreciate it and its "Presence" at the house. It helps turn Grandma's house into a home. I also remember that was the general area Griffey used to make his "daily" rounds to =)
Everything about that tree to me has a place in my memory and my heart!!! I'm glad you said something and sparked my subconcious again!!! That tree is a family heirloom!!! lol...
...Get Up...
pvt: ff, I feel official now that I finally posted...sorry it took me so long.
kf, I used to do that, too...find myself staring at the tree...:)
KF: I kinda figured that...considering you and I are pretty much the same person!!! For both generations!!! =)
i love it. You are funny. The image of mom with a machete...only made even more hilarious knowing that Scot Mar and the whole Mar clan have this image of Mom as of their own stories of growing up next door to us...OMG...how funny...who knows what other things they observed about us?
KF: AP, you keep forgettin to put your initials at the begining...come on girl!!! =)
ff: i'm willing to bet it's not AP who keeps forgetting. i'll wager my right leg that it's AL (LT) who is the phantom poster. (if i'm wrong, you can use grandmas machete to amputate.)
(PVT): ff is right, that AL (LT)...although, I did forget to do leave my initials on the comments I left on your last entry...so...you're both right.
ff: welp, since we're both right you'll have to settle for my pinky toes. i never liked them, they curl like fritos.
lt: too much information.
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